What a day. I promised myself I would be “good” today. I was, mostly. I had a reasonable breakfast, coupled with an extreme desire for iHOP. I tried to trick Sally into going to iHOP with me. However, I made the mistake of giving her the link to my blog, and after she read the re-cap of the Weeine Stand story, I am pretty sure she is not going to let me convince her to eat with me anymore, unless of course, it is a salad or some other food of the healthy variety. It is a good thing, but her saying no, sure did make me want iHOP 100 times more than I did before I asked. I could tell she felt bad for denying me the road trip on a slow day at the office, but I appreciate her for understanding and helping me get control of my eating again.
I made it through the iHOP craving, but I did not make it past the glazed doughnuts that my colleague brought with him to the office today. That was my downfall, then the justification started, and then I wanted to eat everything I could imagine. I thought about all the places I could go for lunch and what each place had to offer. At some point around noon, I got things under control, managed not to go out to lunch, and also managed to remember to get in touch with Tara my trainer from Classika Fitness to set up a schedule for starting our sessions again next week. I had convinced myself that I could be in control of my own exercise program, and that training was too expensive. I can now say with great certainty that I should not be in control of anything, let alone my own exercise program.
My recommitment to working out at Classika Fitness and attempting to keep my eating under control is my attempt to once again break the cycle of food addiction. I am committed to working out twice a week with Tara, and working out three other days a week with a friend. I am going to continue to write this blog in which I will chronicle my food struggles and successes along with my training and exercise ups and downs with Tara and on my own. Session with Tara start on Monday, healthier eating choices start today. Ok, I mean starting today after I ate the doughnut….
I am proud of you for sticking to your desire to fight this food addiction and keep the exercise going! I, too, have been doing some ups and downs, but now with leaving for Ireland tomorrow it is going to be very hard to stick to my guns!! I've going to try, but not punish myself too bad if I slip up since it is a dream vacation. But doesn't the menu in Ireland focus on meat and potatoes?? Oh well, I'll catch up with you when I get back!
ReplyDeleteLove and Hugs for my girl!! Momma D