Change. It is a six letter word that should be a four letter word. More specifically, one of the naughty four letter words. It seems that anytime in life where things do not go as originally scripted, my friends an family all tell me that it is “time for a change”. Usually what they really mean is that it is time for me to experience a tremendous amount of emotional turmoil often coupled with the creation of a new unrealistic picture of how the future will be different. This already tragic coupling is often followed by months of setting unrealistic goals, failing to meet those goals, and then being depressed over not meeting said unrealistic goals.
Despite my seemingly negative attitude towards change, I am ready to make one, or two or three, perhaps even more. However, this time, I am going to be realistic(ish) and also make commitments to not only create sensible goals, but also to write about attaining and often not attaining them as well. OK, so chances are I am not going to be realistic at all. I rarely am.
First things first. Why the special secret name change? Most of you know me by by "other" real world name, Virginia. I like my name, I really do. However, I figured that while I am changing things, I might as well create a meaningful alter ego that might help me step outside of myself. I like the idea of being able to write as someone else, so I can take a careful, perhaps critical look at my life and choices.
So here it is: Lonely Doll: Daisy Alexander
Despite my seemingly negative attitude towards change, I am ready to make one, or two or three, perhaps even more. However, this time, I am going to be realistic(ish) and also make commitments to not only create sensible goals, but also to write about attaining and often not attaining them as well. OK, so chances are I am not going to be realistic at all. I rarely am.
First things first. Why the special secret name change? Most of you know me by by "other" real world name, Virginia. I like my name, I really do. However, I figured that while I am changing things, I might as well create a meaningful alter ego that might help me step outside of myself. I like the idea of being able to write as someone else, so I can take a careful, perhaps critical look at my life and choices.
So here it is: Lonely Doll: Daisy Alexander
Lonely Doll
I picked the descriptor of Lonely Doll based on a childhood obsession with a book by Dare Wright titled "The Lonely Doll". The book is a story of a lonely doll named Edith who is befriended by two bears. The pictures are eerie, the story is slightly disturbing, and I loved it all. I was obsessed with checking the book out of the local library. I was so obsessed that at one point my mother had to call ahead to the library and ask them to take it off the shelf before we arrived. I think I related to Edith on a very fundamental level. I was a very lonely little girl. I had friends, I had family, but there was always a haunting loneliness I couldn't shake.
Lonely Doll http://www.darewright.com/
Daisy
I chose Daisy for two reasons. My favorite flower in the world is the Gerber Daisy and I adore The Great Gatsby. I realize that Daisy was not the most morally desirable character in the novel, however, I relate to her on many levels.
“There must have been moments even that afternoon when Daisy tumbled short of his dream— not through her own fault but because of the colossal vitality of his illusion. ” F.Scott Fitzgerald
Daisy http://www.shmoop.com/great-gatsby/daisy-buchanan.html
Alexander
The name Alexander also has two very important meanings for me. One, my academic advisor in graduate school was named Michele Alexander. She was killed in a car accident in 2003. She was a constant inspiration to me and is the reason I am the type of teacher I am today. The second meaning of Alexander comes from my close friend Alexander Childers, who drowned in a boating accident on Lake Michigan in 2007. He loved life in a way that I have never seen before and doubt I will see again. Both of these amazing peoples are remind me to be the best person I can be on a daily basis.
Michele Alexander http://michele.alexander.socialpsychology.org/
Alexander Childers http://cbs2chicago.com/local/lake.michigan.capsized.2.412555.html
I picked the descriptor of Lonely Doll based on a childhood obsession with a book by Dare Wright titled "The Lonely Doll". The book is a story of a lonely doll named Edith who is befriended by two bears. The pictures are eerie, the story is slightly disturbing, and I loved it all. I was obsessed with checking the book out of the local library. I was so obsessed that at one point my mother had to call ahead to the library and ask them to take it off the shelf before we arrived. I think I related to Edith on a very fundamental level. I was a very lonely little girl. I had friends, I had family, but there was always a haunting loneliness I couldn't shake.
Lonely Doll http://www.darewright.com/
Daisy
I chose Daisy for two reasons. My favorite flower in the world is the Gerber Daisy and I adore The Great Gatsby. I realize that Daisy was not the most morally desirable character in the novel, however, I relate to her on many levels.
“There must have been moments even that afternoon when Daisy tumbled short of his dream— not through her own fault but because of the colossal vitality of his illusion. ” F.Scott Fitzgerald
Daisy http://www.shmoop.com/great-gatsby/daisy-buchanan.html
Alexander
The name Alexander also has two very important meanings for me. One, my academic advisor in graduate school was named Michele Alexander. She was killed in a car accident in 2003. She was a constant inspiration to me and is the reason I am the type of teacher I am today. The second meaning of Alexander comes from my close friend Alexander Childers, who drowned in a boating accident on Lake Michigan in 2007. He loved life in a way that I have never seen before and doubt I will see again. Both of these amazing peoples are remind me to be the best person I can be on a daily basis.
Michele Alexander http://michele.alexander.socialpsychology.org/
Alexander Childers http://cbs2chicago.com/local/lake.michigan.capsized.2.412555.html
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